Struggles
We all have struggles, it's part of life, normal. We are taught since we could understand words how to deal with them. If you hit someone because you want their toy, you have to say sorry and find another toy, until the toy you want becomes available. You have to share. You have to ask nicely, even if you don't know how to. You have to wake up early to go to school. You have to finish grade school and get into a good college. You have to dodge the popular crowd in school, unless you are that crowd, then you have to decide who you are going to torment. You have to get accepted into college and say goodbye to childhood friends. You have to break up with people and move on. You have to move away from family and find a job. You have to deal with your parents fighting. You have to find a way to make an entire day of working out, walking the dog, working full time, going to school full time, cooking dinner, planning a wedding, feeding your husband AND find time to blog about it.
Well it's all bullshit!
How the hell do I make this work? I am not even trying to vent, I am just curious to how I see women around me find a way to trim the pounds and still make it to bed in time to get 7 hours of sleep without picking or choosing which activity they want to give up that night. I am seriously struggling with my weight loss and my stress. Even this evening, when I have an assignment to do and I have been reading and watching seminars for over two hours, I still have to worry about making dinner. I also ate like garbage today, after I've been doing SO WELL eating healthy (thanks work birthdays), and I feel like I need to go workout again to loose this bloated belly.
On top of all this, I have less than two months until the horrible German seamstress tells me to lose more weight to fit into my wonderful wedding dress.
So how do we handle the stress? How are we suppose to make it work? I am taking a personal seminar course this semester in which we have to write about our struggles over the course of our lifetime every week. This week I wrote about my struggle with my self-image and self-esteem. Right now, it's not where it should be (as if it was ever there). I don't understand what went wrong growing up, to cause such a stunt in my personal love making. (And yes, I mean seeing myself in the mirror and telling myself how good looking I am.) The sad part is that I should know the answer to this, thanks to my studies, but I just don't. I don't know how to make it all work. Even switching schedules to find more time during the day to get things done, I don't know how to make it work.
If I can't make it work, how do I stress less? I need to be able to let go and not worry about the things that don't need to be done today. While my homework assignment due TODAY isn't being touched, HA!
So I decided to open this book that I have had for years. It's called the Stress Owners Manual. And although this post is about struggles, I truly believe that half of my struggles right now are because I have so much going on and I just can't seem to be satisfied with what I do accomplish on a daily basis; in turn causing more stress.
Here is the intro to the book:
Touching a hot element on a stove or hearing a good joke both cause reactions. Each actually produces a type of stress. Stress happens whenever your mind and your body react to some real or even imagined situation. Situations which cause stress reactions are called stressors.
Now if this wasn't labelled CAPTAIN OBVIOUS, I would write more. Maybe someday I'll read it. However I wanted to open the book to put in perspective that there is a way to deal. I just need to find it- a nice little routine or niche where I can take pride in what I've done today. Who do you know woke up at 5 am and went to the gym? I can say that this time last year, I wouldn't have done that. Even if I did live with Angie who goes to bed at 7 pm. I can say that I have accomplished more than many 23 (almost 24) year olds that I know. So how to accept it and feel satisfied with what I have done?
Maybe next time.
Ryanne
Well it's all bullshit!
How the hell do I make this work? I am not even trying to vent, I am just curious to how I see women around me find a way to trim the pounds and still make it to bed in time to get 7 hours of sleep without picking or choosing which activity they want to give up that night. I am seriously struggling with my weight loss and my stress. Even this evening, when I have an assignment to do and I have been reading and watching seminars for over two hours, I still have to worry about making dinner. I also ate like garbage today, after I've been doing SO WELL eating healthy (thanks work birthdays), and I feel like I need to go workout again to loose this bloated belly.
On top of all this, I have less than two months until the horrible German seamstress tells me to lose more weight to fit into my wonderful wedding dress.
So how do we handle the stress? How are we suppose to make it work? I am taking a personal seminar course this semester in which we have to write about our struggles over the course of our lifetime every week. This week I wrote about my struggle with my self-image and self-esteem. Right now, it's not where it should be (as if it was ever there). I don't understand what went wrong growing up, to cause such a stunt in my personal love making. (And yes, I mean seeing myself in the mirror and telling myself how good looking I am.) The sad part is that I should know the answer to this, thanks to my studies, but I just don't. I don't know how to make it all work. Even switching schedules to find more time during the day to get things done, I don't know how to make it work.
If I can't make it work, how do I stress less? I need to be able to let go and not worry about the things that don't need to be done today. While my homework assignment due TODAY isn't being touched, HA!
So I decided to open this book that I have had for years. It's called the Stress Owners Manual. And although this post is about struggles, I truly believe that half of my struggles right now are because I have so much going on and I just can't seem to be satisfied with what I do accomplish on a daily basis; in turn causing more stress.
Here is the intro to the book:
Touching a hot element on a stove or hearing a good joke both cause reactions. Each actually produces a type of stress. Stress happens whenever your mind and your body react to some real or even imagined situation. Situations which cause stress reactions are called stressors.
Now if this wasn't labelled CAPTAIN OBVIOUS, I would write more. Maybe someday I'll read it. However I wanted to open the book to put in perspective that there is a way to deal. I just need to find it- a nice little routine or niche where I can take pride in what I've done today. Who do you know woke up at 5 am and went to the gym? I can say that this time last year, I wouldn't have done that. Even if I did live with Angie who goes to bed at 7 pm. I can say that I have accomplished more than many 23 (almost 24) year olds that I know. So how to accept it and feel satisfied with what I have done?
Maybe next time.
Ryanne
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